SORRY

i'm so sorry that always made u worried.....
unhappy....
angry.....
sad.....
beh siok....
especially beh siok....
u r saying that i'm always made u beh siok....
actually i also duno y i will always do that...
i'm so sorry.... T_T
i duno wat can i do
i duno wat should i do also
the thing i knw hw to do
juz say
SORRY 
to u only...
i'm so sorry...
i knw that u r dislike about this...
but i really duno wat can i do on it...
i also duno y i will made u beh siok also...
mayb that's my pattern....
SORRY~
T_T

♥ new life ♥

dear diary.....
i'm so long time din updated it....
y i din updated it ????
issit there was nothing unhappy or sad thing happen around me ???
i thinks so...
coz recently...actually i'm quite comfortable with my new life...
i was start my new study life at SEGI college....
i had study at there going to one month...
until nw...all my worries were gone....
gone...
the main issue that i worry before i study at segi was gone totally...
GONE.....
^^
i had made some new friends at there....
the friends were friendly n din selfish at all.....
they are friendly...kind.....funny....
n even 38.... XP
actually i'm so happy that i can study with him in a same location....
N we are in different class....haha....
it's good for me n him.....
i think....
me n him....  ♥♥
i really love u....
actually i'm always think tat...
my wish can be truth ???
although the wish will always laugh by others...
disagree and even not much can do that...
but i really hope that i can made it....
wish....
wish...
i hope that u will b my first and last bf...
hope that my wish can be truth....
u really treat me so good...
so sayang me....
so care me.....
so worried about me....
care about everything of me....
thanks....
appreciate....
really thanks you...

ACT

acting~~
i'm acting only~
i'm always acting only....
i like.....not.....i should say i'm usual.....
act in front of my friends....
ACT.....
actually i'm not strong at all.....
actually i'm very stress.....
actually i always thinks about something that others wont think.....
in front of friends.....
i'm a relax and easygoing person.....
i'm a girl who always happy.....always laugh......always din hav any worries.....
actually i'm not.....
i'm not but i hope i am.....
i'm so sorry tat i act in front of u all.....
SORRY~
nw....i feel tat.....i'm super stress.....
stress until i wish to kill myself..... T_T

♥♥♥ i love you ♥♥♥

♥♥♥  i love you ♥♥♥

i love you dear.....

really feel very sweet when chat wif u....

thanks a lot.... 

thanks tat u always provide useful suggestion.....

thanks tat u always help me do things.....

thanks a lot....and 

i love you....

♥♥♥

stress

dear diary....
long time din updated alr....
recently...am i good or bad ??
i also duno....
recently....i really feel stress with all my assignments...
mid term..... relationship between friends and friends
wat should i do on tat ???
i really duno wat r u thinking about ???
ur mood ....suddenly can be so good....suddenly can be so bad....
am i done anything wrong ???
if i got done anything wrong....please and juz tell me...
i really cant tahan tat....
suddenly black face to me.....
wat the such face?????
really duno wat reaction should i give u....
i really dunno....
wat can i do ???
sometimes really feel suffer on it.....
suffer.....
assignment n mid term are killing me....
U.....
u also killing me.....
y ??
y ??
wat i had done wrong ???
T_T

pA!N

dear diary~
recently i'm so pain....
pain pain pain n pain only...
wat had happen to me ???
why will become like tat ???
actually sometime will feel curious on
whether i'm din hav time to eat or
i'm not willing to eat ??
which one am i ??
not willing to eat.... haha....
this problem will appear also....
really dunno wat am i thinking....
last time.... i will ask ppl to eat on time....if not....not good for health....
but nw....i'm like tat.... i think i got abit more serious than them....
PAIN....just the word i can said....
regret....regret.....although regret....but everything cant be change anymore....
CANT....

it's like tat since the 1st day.....it also will be the same until the end ????
i should give up on it....
it's impossible will happen...
should not dream again...dream is not good...
dreaming......dreaming....and dreaming....
it's impossible.....so i must be alert on it....
GIVE UP
is the word i can said.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
i need to give up....dont think at it anymore....
dont think don think......
change change change....
i wish to change.....

!t's t!mE

today, it's time to school....
the first day of eco-friendly event....
i need to duty alone....
dunno wat is going on....
dunno the event need to do wat at all....
dunno the game flow....
hw was the prize will giving out....
everything also dunno only.... dunno hw to duty also....
i think i juz knw one thing only....
that is....
i need to duty alone and i need to duty for longer time than others....
y ?????
y ?????
who can tell me why ???
am i doing something wrong that need to have such kind of punish~
duty alone without any relevant knowledge is very hard...
very blur....
and will be very FISH.....
haiz~~
dunno hw to face it also...
but need to face it too....
hope this week can gone faster....
faster faster gone....